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cheerful things:
gardens
simon doonan
hamish bowles
tim with his heels and crooked mohawk
rocko's dancing
destroytwitter application
coffee
cute accents
fassbinder's bitter tears of petra von kant
the thought of being deadly skinny
kicking this cold that has me fragile
and witty people . . .
dancing at midnight
brian mcguire's infinite composure
the fact that i just need st john's wort more than it needs me
latin
twitter's FAZ, Le Monde, and twits in swedish . . .
poverty at least existing in our minds as an abstraction
(what a cerebral feat for such slowly evolving primates, one foot out of the cave . . .)
if not a compassion inducing motivator, yet . . .
yet . . .
yet that we might find a way to renew an optimism . . .
clear the air of genocides . . .
cruelties of our forbears and lesser selves
crueler incarnations
the karmic implications of all the death trades
and the suicide factories where we cut out our own hearts and repair again with topical antidotes
that we might find a way to be whole and strong and optimistic
and that might be where music heals
and drugs save