clinical motherhood: dumpster diving for the rule of law
sad feeling today
defaced a crude joke
anger ensued
accused of brainwashing
clinical motherhood: dumpster diving for the rule of law
found some california family law code from 2002 and 2003 in the dumpster---quite exciting
began the day with a head injury
moving too fast
lots of scorn from mother over the phone today
contemplate joining the army, getting PTSD and checking in to the Veteran's Administration Psychiatric Unit as only possible way to spend some quality "clinical motherhood" time with my VA Nurse workaholic mom before she dies.
she has been increasingly anxious and vexed this year and it pains me.
i do miss her, but cannot understand how she can say so many hurtful things in a row, and not feel sorry for it
it is quite a misfortune to have accepted her "telephone" as it gives her access to attack me in the hurtful way she always attacked my father.
she never gives unconditional love and support. she always casts judgement, and makes rash statements as sharp as knives.
and then it's all finished off with a "i've got to go to work"
as the ultimate cliffhanger.
i then defaced a slummy picture of the methhead and domestic violence abuser chad menard who has been calling someone i know the b-word and being a general misogynist bully in addition to ignoring his children.
so his ugly face flipping off his three year olds was too much obscenity and misogyny for me to see inflicted on the three year olds. i told the six year old if they ever see a man making this extremely sexual and vulgar hand gesture to get away from him fast.
the battered woman is in denial, and worships his middle finger and forces her girls to look at this snide and repulsive shot.
it is beyond declasse, it is humiliating.
all meanwhile she tried to enslave my disabled friend as childcare so she could work at her job. the children were falling into disrepair in absence of their mother, and i am supposed to look at this f-off of a dead-beat dad misogynistic woman-beating idiot flipping his daughters off in some kodak moment on the refrigerator.
like an Orwellian blot on history i tore off his hand, not his face and placed it back on the fridge without the crude hand gesture.
i reported to the six year old, who is not an idiot about his abuse of her mother, to report that i consider it foul and abusive to force the little girls to be around such obscenity.
now, truly, it was bold of me.
but nothing compared to what he deserves.
he was just released from pacific county detention for his meth relapse while on probation, only to terrorize and verbally abuse his battered babymama.
men who hate women, be damned.
reading:
EU Law
about rosemary kennedy's nonconsensual botched lobotmy from the fitzgeralds and the kennedys
http://www.amazon.com/The-Fitzgeralds-Kennedys-American-Saga/dp/0312063547
and
NB
mother threatened to beat benjamen pickering twice if he verbally abuses me 19 May 2014.
she is his administrative payee for his federal social security income.
that is nothing to take lightly.
i witnessed one such threat. the other happened in the other apartment.
that morning she asked me to "beat me with a hose" over the telephone. i hung up after that request, as i have told her i find such language offensive and i have asked her not to say such things.
she threatened to beat his sister's children with a switch she picked on the highway.
she threatened to take out the gas money on ben's hide, a "joke" we found creepy and sexual.
she threatened to hit me last october 2013, as she lunged at me and i cried "are you going to hit me?" and she said "i want to."
she should be fired from her job at the veteran's administration for constant longterm neglect of her children, abuse of my father, and current threats.
after dad died julia severs eng was asking anne about calling her a "hussy" for wearing a tank top.
(i explain this is sexual harassment. i later note the sexual harassment of minors article in the oregonian. michael eng pans it as west coast nonsense, #yesallwomen)
then candice walker started talking about bitches.
i mentioned that my rapist used that word.
then michael andrew eng chastised me for talking about my rapist. as if all the talk about bitches and hussies was okay, but not about a misogynistic foul-mouthed rapist.
he chewed me out about it.
raped victims get gagged in the basement.
i finally told him to back off, that he he is a bully. that my dad is my only family, and he is dead. that all this other family is just a pack of bullies who love to gang bully me and i can see it and i am sick of being treated like the runt.
he tried to to force me to apologize to my little sister for daring to speak of my rapist after all the unrequested rape triggers at the sexist dinner table ruth balsey stephens would be appalled.
i tried to as i said "michael wants me to apologize for talking about my rapist. bitches and rape what's the difference?"
she left sad and confused, but fully aware maniacal michael had cornered me to abuse me downstairs.
woman-to-woman she knew i was getting an old fashioned norwegian honor killing ala ENG.
now, ransom wouldn't have all this, ever.
michael eng was possibly
absolutely unaware of the propaganda of my sarcasm about the mandatory cursewords at the vernacular-rich dinner. i knew eating with the family would be a mistake. i am used to the annual "running of the bulls" when the bullies of the eng family like to have an annual hate-fest.
the octopus of pewter in father's hands melded into the stink of his putrefaction.
i apologize heartily for inviting anyone including the Portland Police to his funeral as it was dreadful and he smelled dreadful.
sincere apologies, all.
as for all the sexual harassment in the eng household, we are slowly making our way into the twentieth and the twenty-first centuries, slowly at our own paces, with all the diversity that a wide range of misogyny can offer.
#yesallwomen
even steve pickering called kimberly pickering a #hussy as a teen---what filthy sexist misogyny from her father. and even steve and julie ivey pickering beat their kids with a lysol or hair spray bottle over the head when they were kids in a california hotel room.
CPS was too high to save Benjamen Pickering's left eyeball or skull.
was it drug-fueled or what?
like a few head injuries wouldn't contribute to a lifetime of despair, or the next injury.
defaced a crude joke
anger ensued
accused of brainwashing
clinical motherhood: dumpster diving for the rule of law
found some california family law code from 2002 and 2003 in the dumpster---quite exciting
began the day with a head injury
moving too fast
lots of scorn from mother over the phone today
contemplate joining the army, getting PTSD and checking in to the Veteran's Administration Psychiatric Unit as only possible way to spend some quality "clinical motherhood" time with my VA Nurse workaholic mom before she dies.
she has been increasingly anxious and vexed this year and it pains me.
i do miss her, but cannot understand how she can say so many hurtful things in a row, and not feel sorry for it
it is quite a misfortune to have accepted her "telephone" as it gives her access to attack me in the hurtful way she always attacked my father.
she never gives unconditional love and support. she always casts judgement, and makes rash statements as sharp as knives.
and then it's all finished off with a "i've got to go to work"
as the ultimate cliffhanger.
i then defaced a slummy picture of the methhead and domestic violence abuser chad menard who has been calling someone i know the b-word and being a general misogynist bully in addition to ignoring his children.
so his ugly face flipping off his three year olds was too much obscenity and misogyny for me to see inflicted on the three year olds. i told the six year old if they ever see a man making this extremely sexual and vulgar hand gesture to get away from him fast.
the battered woman is in denial, and worships his middle finger and forces her girls to look at this snide and repulsive shot.
it is beyond declasse, it is humiliating.
all meanwhile she tried to enslave my disabled friend as childcare so she could work at her job. the children were falling into disrepair in absence of their mother, and i am supposed to look at this f-off of a dead-beat dad misogynistic woman-beating idiot flipping his daughters off in some kodak moment on the refrigerator.
like an Orwellian blot on history i tore off his hand, not his face and placed it back on the fridge without the crude hand gesture.
i reported to the six year old, who is not an idiot about his abuse of her mother, to report that i consider it foul and abusive to force the little girls to be around such obscenity.
now, truly, it was bold of me.
but nothing compared to what he deserves.
he was just released from pacific county detention for his meth relapse while on probation, only to terrorize and verbally abuse his battered babymama.
men who hate women, be damned.
reading:
EU Law
about rosemary kennedy's nonconsensual botched lobotmy from the fitzgeralds and the kennedys
http://www.amazon.com/The-Fitzgeralds-Kennedys-American-Saga/dp/0312063547
and
- Petro Grigorenko Memoirs: Pietro G. Grigorenko W W Norton & Co Inc; 1st ed edition (1984) ISBN 0-393-01570-X
NB
mother threatened to beat benjamen pickering twice if he verbally abuses me 19 May 2014.
she is his administrative payee for his federal social security income.
that is nothing to take lightly.
i witnessed one such threat. the other happened in the other apartment.
that morning she asked me to "beat me with a hose" over the telephone. i hung up after that request, as i have told her i find such language offensive and i have asked her not to say such things.
she threatened to beat his sister's children with a switch she picked on the highway.
she threatened to take out the gas money on ben's hide, a "joke" we found creepy and sexual.
she threatened to hit me last october 2013, as she lunged at me and i cried "are you going to hit me?" and she said "i want to."
she should be fired from her job at the veteran's administration for constant longterm neglect of her children, abuse of my father, and current threats.
after dad died julia severs eng was asking anne about calling her a "hussy" for wearing a tank top.
(i explain this is sexual harassment. i later note the sexual harassment of minors article in the oregonian. michael eng pans it as west coast nonsense, #yesallwomen)
then candice walker started talking about bitches.
i mentioned that my rapist used that word.
then michael andrew eng chastised me for talking about my rapist. as if all the talk about bitches and hussies was okay, but not about a misogynistic foul-mouthed rapist.
he chewed me out about it.
raped victims get gagged in the basement.
i finally told him to back off, that he he is a bully. that my dad is my only family, and he is dead. that all this other family is just a pack of bullies who love to gang bully me and i can see it and i am sick of being treated like the runt.
he tried to to force me to apologize to my little sister for daring to speak of my rapist after all the unrequested rape triggers at the sexist dinner table ruth balsey stephens would be appalled.
i tried to as i said "michael wants me to apologize for talking about my rapist. bitches and rape what's the difference?"
she left sad and confused, but fully aware maniacal michael had cornered me to abuse me downstairs.
woman-to-woman she knew i was getting an old fashioned norwegian honor killing ala ENG.
now, ransom wouldn't have all this, ever.
michael eng was possibly
absolutely unaware of the propaganda of my sarcasm about the mandatory cursewords at the vernacular-rich dinner. i knew eating with the family would be a mistake. i am used to the annual "running of the bulls" when the bullies of the eng family like to have an annual hate-fest.
the octopus of pewter in father's hands melded into the stink of his putrefaction.
i apologize heartily for inviting anyone including the Portland Police to his funeral as it was dreadful and he smelled dreadful.
sincere apologies, all.
as for all the sexual harassment in the eng household, we are slowly making our way into the twentieth and the twenty-first centuries, slowly at our own paces, with all the diversity that a wide range of misogyny can offer.
#yesallwomen
even steve pickering called kimberly pickering a #hussy as a teen---what filthy sexist misogyny from her father. and even steve and julie ivey pickering beat their kids with a lysol or hair spray bottle over the head when they were kids in a california hotel room.
CPS was too high to save Benjamen Pickering's left eyeball or skull.
was it drug-fueled or what?
like a few head injuries wouldn't contribute to a lifetime of despair, or the next injury.
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