Laura Jedeed's extended 10-minute hate on Andy Ngo (disclaimer: i do not support anti-asian hate, queerbashing or silencing BIPOC voices) #JungleFever #UnblockMeYouCoward

(i publish these videos of laura jedeed choppy reading and alternating commentary about andy ngo's antifa book unmasked, not because i support them, but bc i find them very concerning.  some of the topic matter is intriguing. i am responding to the hateful tone, posturing, and lack of self-awareness. nobody reads this blog, and i have worked hard to obscure it. i am not making any money from this blog, and apologize if anyone finds anything upsetting below.)

(have some videos gone missing? deleted? copyright flagged?)

#1984

10 minute hates were a popular cold war sport in colorado ayn rand racist enclaves. you would think laura jedeed slows down her hate after the massacre of asian people, but no. the hate, is this perennial given among the white and white passing people who hijacked the black lives matter movement in portland.

now the white trash who call themselves leftists in portland think hating on asian people is the epicenter of leftist coolness.

some of us, who have chronic cultural shame about the japanese americans interned during WWII disagree.

we have chronic shame about american service men raping Vietnamese women, or murdering civilians in the Vietnam conflict, or the war on French Indochina, or even concerns about the residual racism permeating the culture due to the Korean war mindset, or the POW brainwash powering up the MKULTRA experiments----.

we have shame about the obliteration of the "comfort women" status as sex slaves in times of war!
By the Japanese Government's misogyny and tactic of erasure!

Laura Jedeed likes to hate on vietnamese family's First Generation USA-born kid's use of English grammar.

She even likes to assure the public he is not allowed to use French versions of words, bc that offends her plebian low-brow american target market.

In her racist world: Asian people can't be TOO educated, or they get sideswiped. It was called French indochina for a reason. Think. Colonialism.

some of us Hate Hate, more than any white passing press-tifist, can hate an asian kid born in the 1980's to Vietnamese refugees.

Some presstifa, claiming to be from Texas, brought Texas white racism to Portland, and bottled it and called it artisan. ANd for certain white American Texas racist press types, Texas racism is just the racism-du-jour that will fly with the gourmand tastes of other racists moving to Whitelandia.

and so.

Perhaps the violent hillbillies were austerely misguided, but also the violent leftists too.

and nary a drop of sense would they make, for years and years, through thickets of sarcasm, and blood, and cashapp, and post beating witch trials, and trials by cashappp, and gaybashings, and the intersection of anti-gayness and anti-asian-ness, where homo-bashing was a sport, on one side of the country, or world.

and some of us were not having it.

#pinkwash

say Portland antifa wannabes, had a manny.

and the manny would make them famous.

and the manny was gay.

and asian.

and Portland was not soaked in K-pop, or Manga, enough, to understand the eroticization of the hate, the hyper-mythicalization of the hate, the Hate was so big, the Hated was a demon, a satan, a god, an omnipotent malevolent all powerful bugaboo, and a zero, a nothing, a victim, that which should be bashed.

and all this comes out as a slurring drunk hate fest of whiskey and curse words.

the heterosexism bares no interrogation.

the white passing hetero passing Laura Jedeed who claims to have a deceased Syrian father taking out her Immigrant father's unsettledness by hating on immigrant families. it reminds me of the time the russian lady tried to get me to hate on the latinos at the Hollywood YMCA sauna. not going to happen LADY.

"it's not racism if yr white-tifa." let's put it that way. or not. (sarcasm)

you see these little babies were raised by the generation directly older than me, i find so misogynistic, so perverse....

and if the white uprising that supplanted an authentic black-led black-centered movement, needs to have a Mao-figue to revile hate and worship, can we not analyze the perverse way, whiteness, is that which is always obscure unto itself. whiteness, cannot unexplain itself, whiteness bares no critique, whiteness is the product, the process, the method, the sad mockery, the comedy of whiteness demonstrating its pseudo-supremacy all over again, like a rapist spewing seed over its victim, whiteness is grotesque a carnival of murder, murdering, mockery, victim blaming, victim bashing, every known entity which whiteness may revile, laura channels all whiteness when she speaks on behalf of the white people who supplanted people of color, exiled and gentrified them, encouraged their whiteness to supercede and displace, send onward on a trail of tears. mariah macaronio called it out months ago. she carries pepper spray bc these whites don't let a woman of color feel safe at her own movement.... and mariah blocked me, because i supported her, the strength of her statements, and laura blocked me too.

now if my 27% Finnishness is super offended by anti-asian hate, lets have it. yes, humans migrate. yes asian migrants melded into the Finnish genome. yes i have blood from sami-land, or lappland. so yes, i am minutely distantly asian. and yes, i feel asian rage, when i see anti asian hate.

and add to that my hot irish head and what not.

one would name drop the hated, as a Gangland Ritual, by which to become one with the gang. By Hating an Asian person, verbally on Twitter on Instagram, or on Youtube, in whatever blue-collar, low-brow populist slurs one could muster, drunkenly, one could be one with the hate, or the racism, or the left-hiss sorcery, whatever you want to call it. put it in a blender.

Erasing the racism from Portland is not easy. 

Portland cherishes the right to hate, and in some ways the cult of hatred against Andy Warhol, or andy ngo, or which ever andy, or anti-this or that one needs to hate---is itself an act of pure anti-fascism. (NOT)

so it felt like Laura Jedeed ate my brain.

I'd try to watch her boring show, but her harsh vulgar way of slurring upset me.

I'm all for literary analysis.

I was shocked when she pumped up the hate post-massacre.

i was expecting a notice like this:

In respect for the massacre of Asian-Americans in the United States of America, i will briefly pause my regularly scheduled hatred on an Asian gay man.

No.

ANd sometimes, she'll even do the whole, "it's not because he's asian and gay routine."

I don't buy it.

I don't buy it.

Racism, by any other name is still racism to me.

The thing the poor little american oregon antifa lites will never understand is that embodying the poisonous cultures they seek to disrupt, will never boost them over the fence of futurity.

Hanging around in the Klan robes is never a good look.

and so i do know they feel that trying to burn the courthouse down, was for the best.

what i am saying is that silencing the Asian Gay man's right to dissent from their top-down authoritarian pro-arson mentality, is the height of hypocrisy and tyranny.

if the "white press" aka presstifa, aka presstifists, really want to hide their militancy behind a false social media construction of presstifism, and claim they did it for george floyd, meanwhile be mean to every black person of asian person they see, and make an all white civil rights movement where white people bully and beat and ridicule BIPOC people, this is not ok with me.

LauraJedeed twitter account blocked me for likely calling her racist.

admitting she profits off of the BLM movement, while blocking mariah macaronio, was too disgusting for me.

then invoking DMCA not as a troll, but as some bona fide capitalist hypocrisy to silence  and speak over the voices of people she seeks to supplant, displace, gentrify, drive away, demonize, ridicule, commodify.

OMG.

well, hypocrisy has so many flavors.

i noticed Laura Jedeed decided to name-drop andy warhol, i mean andy ngo, or anti-fascism with some #UnblockMeYouCoward nonsense.

and of course she still blocks me after getting embarrassed she got sucked into econbrkfst nick lee's eternal psychodrama.

jumping in on the econbrkfst blaming random people he never met for his suicidality, was a bit illogical.

i was kinda like whoa there mafia lady enforcer all hitting me up in the DM's to try to accuse me of some BS.

Maybe she was embarrassed when she realized she was sucked into false-blame game hate-a-thon on a real leftist.

i mean, whatever, left-right. i dont use it. people like these fake leftists, who are basically meat-eating hetero-supremacist, queerbashing, asianbashing, misogynist, white-centering, copyright-promoting, racist-war-fighting, hetero-marriage supporting, gun-toting, abuser-apologists, who marginalize black voices, and beat and castigate asian voices, don't speak for me, and i don't consider them left.

they treat the riot like a bake sale, a lemonade stand for their narcissism and Instagram modeling hipsterdom.

which is normal for their age.

sort of.

they dont support liberal values.

freedom and tolerance.

freedom to question.

the tyranny of the molotov is still another war cult, and there is no room for pacifists in their little cashapp insurrection.

watch it if you can.

largely cant.

one day she promised to read the communist manifesto, and instead read some vulgar erotica to the right wing hillbillies and finally pissed off the left-crew she claimed to be a part of suddenly, since like 6 months ago.

i never suspected she's left.

hating on an asian man to me proves nothing but racism.

censoring an asian man proves nothing to me as well.

oh say this stoner 2lesslegs wanted to do the book burning thing at the book store.

maybe his brain is too fried on marijuana to notice how censoring an asian man's right to have an opinion on the molotov riot arson, is peak whitelandia.

In Nashville, there was a real KKK terrifying people. a Real lynching of an innocent black boy, i knew of.

The hate always begins in words and dehumanization.

the white-tifa white-left-ist-wannabes enact their racist undertones in micro and macroaggressions.

the snowball of intolerance, creates a culture of dominance.

i feel so fortunate to have had the joy of living in Los Angeles, in Koreatown and the edge of Thai Town, having a Japanese friend----whose strange animosity to Korea i did not understand.

i didn't know why.

i've so many interesting Vietnam War vet stories pored into me.

tormented individuals.

"I love the Vietnamese people" "i was a trained killer" "i do not hate the Vietnamese people" "i was brainwashed"

what i wonder, is why these american white bread middle america kids, find it so easy to hate?

THE CIA TOLD THEM TO.

i assume their parents are racist. in some cases, i know their parents are racist. because they say so.

they feel their racism to andy warhol, or andy ngo, is more subtle, more nuanced, a google indexing "bomb"
a chance to make it into the big league, a proof of hate, a proof of nothing to me, but ignorance, as racism always and ever was.

"a grift" as they say: a way to make money. they sell hate.

no one is perfect.

i am this person noticing things.

laura jedeed will always be a soldier.

she is a half-syrian woman soldier who has come back to this country from the war to support burning down a courthouse.

PTSD, much?

on one snippet of her anti-andy warhol , i mean anti-andy vlog, she admitsz she doesnt do the violence.

her silly why i support the riots  essay----bc riots are like a pinata and it feels like a fiesta and kids like to break stuff----kind of tells me too much.

like stop appropriating pinatas, yo.

kids need an identity.

ill always be exactly ten years older, and wiser, or stupider. or senile-er.

so some stuff is cool about the e-kids.

they can do the split screens. they share stuff.

they like to use all the latest platforms.

they build mystery and intrigue by frivolous blocking, to enforce cliquishness.

the left is currently giving her hell for recently defecting from bourgeois young republicanism. CPAC, or something.

hillbilly-tifa, or whatever.

she's zany and reminds me of my old best friend.

i wish she would be more elegant and refined.

at a certain point, i am so black power i just wish all the white passing would shut up and i do also mean gregory mckelvey and his cult mainframe.

so, yeah. there is that,

this is a fist for black power.

and if i did it wrong, so be it, but i dont need five elitist whites like robert evans iwriteok, laura jedeed swann and her elderly exhusband, and joey camp and james buchal and cory elia all up in my face, when portland was TOO WHITE already.

if i had my way, id be back in LA, or London, or France or somewhere, where multiculturalism is a thing, even if its done wrong. i just don't like talking about things like this and it has been bothering me for some time and i wanted to say something and i dont know how.

the effect of the leftist rioters who block you on twitter is the Block-tifa paranoia-tifa attain elitist status, by exclusively country-clubbing their misappropriation of BLM. Mariah can block me all day. but Laura, what on earth is her problem? was she brainwashed by braingarbled econbrkfst? scared of a vegan post-copyright anti-capitalist who protested all wars, forever? nah---its cool.

i mean maybe i was coming off as a lesbian creeper, and if so , i do apologize, m'am.

my anti-bullying initiative has go to be so Melania Be Best like, as plenty of people are bullies, and my veganism goes deeper than food.

i dont think cruelty to humans is ok, much as i don't think cruelty to other animals is ok.

Antifa PDX thinks you have to be gun-toting, cruel, misogynist, gaybashing, asianbashing, violent, destructive, meateating, bullying, mean, i dont like it!

Gun Toting pseudo-leftists. don't get me started.

on a sheer cruelty basis, i do not like cruelty or violence, ever.

cruelty to humans, even verbal, annoys and unsettles me.

it opposes my inner Jainist religion.

what is so interesting about portland antifa wannabes hate-obsession with anti-andy racism and queer-bashing is the omerta hallmark ritualism of it.

partake in hatred, and you can join the cult.

who's done it?

donovan farley.

alex zielinski

cory elia

robert evans

nick lee, aka econbrkfst

maybe they think they are partaking of the black v. asian culture war when they wage hate.

its just so crass and crude and their militant orthodoxy as they spew their hate mantras seems so obtuse, so untravelled, so white elitist, it smacks of coachella hipsters in native american head-dress, does this cultural appropriation make me look less like a bigot?

no laura, your half syrian ass hating on his 75% vietnamese self still looks racist

stop bullying immigrants children.

so which white people get to represent BLM should not be the argument we are having, but someone needs to stop the hijack.

its like when misogyny took over veganism.

is it the misogyny yr enforcing, or kindness to animals?

the anti-asian anti-andy bizness crept into Portland screwiness right after it became trendy to call every one a Maoist if they didnt agree with you.

all i see is cold war kids, vietnam war pushers, hating on vietnamese civilians.

it feels so cold.

and love was colder than death.

my calvin klein dress was made in vietnam.

and i am guilty too.

as i write about racism, in that courthouse.

if the inquisition/s many methods, sought strife to mimic bombasticity, perhaps the great nothingness, in between, will secure that breonna taylor picture to the glass, so my building does not burn tonite. do you hear me?

a goddess, an aphrodite, would secure the way forward.

i didnt need some bourgeois girl's 10 minute hate on her asian gay best friend polluting my time line like she is name dropping the fact that she only met one asian guy in her life and she hated him so that's multiculti. wow. no. not cutting it.

suddenly it was trendy among the anti-vietnamese anti-fa wannabes to hate hate.

they proudly spouted anti-hate messages in bewteen hate fixes. like smoking the crack pipe outside the alcoholics anonymous building. the important thing is to get rid of all the hate, but at least a hashtag will do.

laura jedeed even used the premise of hating on the vietnamese author to raise money for myanmar activists, as if using the myanmar asian people as human shields would protect her from accusations of anti-asian hate-bashings which she claims she will continue indefinitely.

the thing about hate, is that sometimes it can go out of style.

the hate mantras the white and white passing BLM-usurpers of Portland utter, legitimize racial terror, and enforce a code of servility that is not truly empowering.

to be accepted by the colonialist BLM-carpetbaggers, wolfs in sheeps clothes as you will, BIPOC must submit to people like Laura Jedeed's quest to obliterate self-identity and self-authorizing independent thought.

this was Portland's problem to begin with. the oppression was so thick you could taste it on the bus. no wonder the white kids who took over black neighborhoods feel so guilty they have to go burn down the courthouse. they are waging a personal war of self-hatred and guilt.

now laura jedeed's internalized racism against her deceased syrian father, may be a part of why she is trying so hard to hate on somebody's refugee son.

laura jedeed will stump for macsmiff whenever his ex called him out for abuse.

these human things are not okay.

why was laura jedeed so anxious to disbelieve macsmiff's victim?

why was laura jedeed so anxious to hate on me, when i never met her or her con-artist buddy making a hell-war on me, to silence me, bc misogyny.

my role as a peacekeeper, leads to me being targeted and that was by design.

i walked into the crossfire, on purpose. bc i do that.

im not asking for a medal.

i just wanted the fighting to stop.

the hate to stop.

the racism to stop.

the femicide to stop.

the poverty, the violence.

there are so many words, and so few words.

there is a better way.

I had no idea i was supposed to HATE andy ngo when i asked him a question on twitter about a year ago.

i didnt get the HATE memo.

i was aware he was beaten and spoke out against misogyny in islam and suicide bombings and such.

i didnt realize the White-Activist authoritarians had blacklisted him so thoroughly, that speaking to him was forbidden.

i asked about a bullying campaign.

i assumed, twitter is a place i have networked with activists and writers from all over the world.

why should a little provincial racist enclave of anarchists in portland tell me who i am allowed to speak to.

oh hell.

it's like antifa shariah.

antifas have decided the female is not allowed to go to school.

have decided she is not allowed outside the home. etc. to communicate.

there are corollaries.

the sexist leftists like alan kessler can't be questioned.

they have to block their way to the top, like a petty glenn greenwald. the same drama. different penis.

and it's just what it is.

sad.

and the beat goes on and the rub and tug.

if you dont rub and tug the white press ego properly, they will spray you down with metaphorical bullets like a massage parlor enraging their jungle fever /christian repression guilt complex misogyny.

i was trying to explain why the almost godlike status antifers give andy warhol, i mean andy ngo is the opposite of their hate crush.

they have preposterous levels of admiration and aggrandizement of his proportions based on the converse of the anti-asian mythos. like they really think of him as this giant sized almost 1M twitter followers homegrown portland celebrity which he is.

they conflate hatred of the Japanese alliance with hitler, for their general hatred on andy ngo.

they Know, it was safe to hate and even GENOCIDE via ATom Bomb just a few gens ago.

ANd he could be Mao, but not really.

And Portland white bread tifa's have every stereotype Hollywood could muster betraying Orientalized Cliches mixed up into their hate fest.

If yr not in the hate club, yr out.

it is utterly disgusting.

well the first girl i ever tried to kiss was a beautiful Philippina 

what do you know?

#JungleFever #UnblockMeYouCoward

her little methy baby boy buddy john hacker even admitted to homophobia and racism in a tweet recently.

(disclaimer i do not support using the hateful epithets deployed in the song jungle fever by das racist.... i have heretofore avoided sharing this... it's the song that summarizes white racist antifa wannabe's love/hate thing on andy ngo. please accept my apologies for the vulgarity of this song from the controversial anti-racist rap group das racist)

i got the term #afrocentric off this song

i said it and a black woman kissed me on the lips

heems kissed me on the lips too

#SmashRacism it's really that simple

das racist radicalized me against sexism too, just start calling it out, all the time, call it all out, forever

you see misogyny extends to gay men.

the gentle sweetness, the weakness, the femininity that some gay men embody---provokes torrents of butch rage---and here i see Laura Jedeed a very Butch dont ask dont tell kind of Lady Soldier doing a queerbashing antigay hatred, to enforce the military's misogynistic rape culture----and clearly, that's not ok. get help for the trauma. hate is not therapy. time out. time's up.

(addendum: did andy ngo wrongthink? did his wrongthink justify the ten minute hate? is Laura Jedeed Big Brother or Big Sister? would this be appropriate at the office? How much queerbashing and asianbashing could she normalize before getting fired? it's astounding, the dystopia, i say.... #JusticeForGeorgeFloyd and was it the covid-laced anti-asian hate at a crescendo that really amped up the anti-ngo crowd?  how could portland dare justify beating asian men in public on the streets? i thought we were helping to fight that in other countries, not pick up on such barbaric practices..... but i didnt need to write this... don't listen to me . . .)

(were her Vietnam war made superiors in the military puffing her up with righteous hatred for vietnamese civilians??? covertly? subtly?)

someone called it EDGELORD on twitter