You'll get your Paradise

 Said the coolest hippie boy to me after I climbed the riverbank rocks looking for the discarded belongings sinking into a hug over hot chocolate pondering the significance of the fentanyl stolen phone finally lost for good underwater homeless connect but another concentration camp Transit Center refusing to allow homeless people to go get their rations of dental floss and clean socks officer Hansen flies to the rescue enforces the equity of civil rights Transit capabilities on the bus with the man who choked on the woman and shot her up a bunch---she is facing incarceration for reporting assault ----getting down to the Civic Convention Center of Seaside so many memories the pictures taken down the trauma the nightmare the drug withdrawal running into people you don't want to run into fentanyl Mike going to call the news on the Lifeboat Fiasco the lawyer slipping down the hill could cease and desist me again I wouldn't care I got a good report that judge Bo Peterson or rather Mr Peterson was the way I predicted fair possibly even nice so pleased i don't have to court observe that although my eyes would have liked it my friend said you could be better served elsewhere the shower service at homeless connect was truly groundbreaking next year's goal is to have tampons in the restroom if men need to really be mansplained about menstruation they must understand these things sneak up sneak back and surprise you when you're least ready The Fabulous wait for 2 hours at the bus stop in Seaside yielded a murder confession from an old alcoholic it wasn't an intentional deliberate murder but rather he punched a man in the face three times because that man had punched a woman in the face and was stomping her skull he served 11 years that level of honesty my God this might be the fourth time somebody pulled that for me but the time I'm back in Astoria Wheeling into the transit center at 4:35 the transit lady who tried to prohibit the homeless person from going to the homeless Festival in Seaside refuses to let me go to the bathroom I even assert the need to change a tampon but that is not enough to melt her heart. down in Seaside at the convention center I talked with a board member of the transit district about the district attorneys Vendetta on the bus driver carrying on over a long year in trying to ruin the woman's life for being a whistleblower the board member caught my drift but encouraged me to protect myself I spoke to a very fine non-profit deliver light which does a sort of concierge service for the homeless reaching out and bringing socks and hygiene meals and assisting with emotional support a faith-based group I was delighted to be granted the elegant and beautiful woman to lead us around like puppies I had met her  several weeks ago include her in about the corruption in the non-profit world my panic attack fearing that I would run into the Lifeboat cronies subsided once I recognize that Lifeboat was either disinvited or refused to attend or was too busy or whatever too Crooked and corrupt or maybe the system is finally realizing how traumatizing it is to have a man who sexually harasses homeless women constantly fronting as their advocate. I was peeved at having to ride the bus which only is operating every hour and 45 minutes due to the transit system Fiasco with the fentanyl smoker who put his hand around my throat and believe me fortunately he moved on and decided to stay in Seaside and skedaddled from the bus and a great time was had by all chit-chatting with buck and Ricky ever so clever lumadu good God what is his name Savage dion shows up in his grey blue low riding Nissan pickup truck popping with music selling his Fentanyl and meth right outside McDonald's Seaside as police turn the other direction and all I can say is he has a hottie of a son wonder when he's getting out of prison for his burglary tools hoping I don't get profiled as an anti-drug person observing the flagrant drug scene right there at 3:30 pm in the afternoon it was like something out of a movie the whole meth party shows up to the parking lot. Savage a beautiful man I know a little too much about because of his son's confidence and I find out about a skateboard assault in which a man was almost beaten to death by skateboard smashed a window at the thrift store called stuff and was beaten up by Seaside Police but the district attorney didn't want to charge him for fighting a cop because it might draw attention to the police brutality he's a known to be a very drunk out of control fellow he was upset over a girl who had broken his heart by not being receptive to his marriage proposal and my friend exclaimed that he advocated very much to protect the people who barely made it through the snowstorm at Helping Hands. I continue to brag at getting my friend on meds although the fact of the matter with the river meltdown I confided in an older friend that I won't be surprised if the police eventually have to act and that not everyone will be a pacifist and take the hit and I showed up in time to get my green jacket off the River Rocks it's a time honored tradition for the homeless to throw each other's belongings in the river but I understand now you might also become a tradition to throw your own belongings in the river as a form of sacrifice to the river gods or sacrifice of the wealth and as for alpha male posturing it seemed to evoke the proper response of the demonstration of the wealth of Human Resources the caring connections of Society come help your friend he's having a meltdown and there I am getting lauded by the cool hippie dude who said you'll get your  paradise you'll get your Paradise and you are such a good person and I suggested I just have a funny suicide method as I kick off the crud and I can't buy Emily a pizza I just don't have the energy and the grumpy old Oxford House Mogul at the church is irritated at the homeless maybe he could let them shack up in one of his many cars or his Mexican Hideaway or whatever and the hypocrisy of the criminals turns pompous Bible book Thumpers is just a bit too much for some of us who Unite to encourage a more Equitable and inclusive atmosphere I wonder if Tyler is okay I try to keep a lid on the melodrama and I gave helmet John my "it's okay" wall hanging one of the many puzzles floating around to be regifted to the end of time and the bunny portrait I didn't really want I was gifted and thank God I have a break to reflect on it all

I say hi Monica to Monica Steele who's been scoring all that grant money to puff up Ozark and had to admit that it is a state matter regarding the Discrimination complaint against Lifeboat or that it is not a county matter the fact is is that compliance with state laws is a county matter. any attempt of her clatsoppy County attorney to mislead her in that regard is laughable but as stated before the learning curve is on the move.

To cheer myself the night before I read ransom's foia

happy tuesday

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