I dreamed of mom

In the dream I told her how much I admire her and how much she had taught me over the years

 recently I've been processing the fact that part of why the Americans with Disabilities Act is so personal to me 

is that my mother was suffering hip degeneration of her left and right hip bones and sockets my entire childhood and struggling on crutches 

and my drive to get accessibility including accessibility at the astoria oregon

 Lifeboat shelter which inherently discriminates against people on crutches, wheelchairs, and walkers

 is partly due to my exposure to her accessibility challenges and stigma

my mother was a very high functioning person with disabilities 

but postponed her surgeries indefinitely fearful that complications could take her away from the family and also be economically catastrophic

 she worked long shifts at the hospitals despite chronic pain

 medicating herself with over the counter Tylenol and Advil

In the dream I told her how formative her experience and perspective was for who I am including how much she always cared for the poor the homeless the downtrodden the disabled the abused

 everybody who knows me knows I talk trash about her bad temper but good God she really was a saint

She is in care for Parkinson's now and getting exceptional care in Portland