Ben Pickering threatens to carjack me, asks me to commit double suicide

hey for those friends and family who want to comment on this blog---i have been dealing with ben pickering's manic screaming episodes for almost two years.

his property destruction, screaming rages, and constant threats are a danger to me and to my family.

i do not like dealing with police every time he becomes suicidal, manic, and delirious.

i do not always agree with the way my family handles everything.

i'd rather not date someone who constantly gets cops called on him for his emotional disturbances.

i think it's inhumane to put cops in the position of handling ben when he's violent.

much less little me.

i have been fighting off my family's dislike of ben's abusiveness---in an attempt to get him to a better place.

since july 2013 i have been afraid he will be tasered or killed by police when he becomes episodic.  i have been doing everything i can to try to de-escalate his manic rages.

i am very pleased he did not succeed in committing suicide by cop this time or the last other three times he has become manically suicidal. (aug 2014, december 2014, january 2015, april 2015)

if you love him, please help him stop his hitchhiking and running the streets.

at gloria knapp's in wahkiakum, jeremy's girlfriend karen has held him up at knifepoint twice and thrown a phone at his left cheek gashing the inside of his mouth and death threatened him. sheriff's are aware.

he is traumatized by this.

christina pickering hibberds partner alan hibberds has attacked ben pickering with a baseball bat.

i am trying to prevent ben pickering from become a homicide victim.

we all know he is annoying, loud, and has trouble processing.

it doesnt mean he's not lovable.

he has threatened me with police many times, including calling them on me when he is abusing me.

i do not want to live this way, in a high state of mania and chaos surrounded by copcars and his paranoia.

any one of you who want to thank us for our caregiving and sheltering ben for the last few years for free might recognize my intent to save his life and train him to be less confrontational with police and strangers.

if you need to send me nasty letters or want some genuine assistance in tracking down his perpetrators email me at maryeng1@gmail.com.

harass pacific county for letting madman corey johnson run the streets after almost killing ben in 2013.

harass portland police for not giving ben pickering a disability friendly way to report his 14 april 2015 mugging in portland which has him so upset.

get him an apartment.

stop assisting him to hitchhike. it's dangerous.

get your own blog, to write your own side of the story. your viewpoint is valuable. if you want to blame me for all the child abuse ben pickering experienced, go ahead.

i just met him.

he abuses me now. the power of my love cannot stop the power of his abuse.

members of his family commenting nasty comments on this blog is not very productive.

will ben pickering ever stop abusing women?

i don't know.

is it misogyny? or is he just longing for a loving mother-figure?

intimidation and harassment are crimes against women.  someone should have taught him how to be a gentleman.

he's a beautiful spirit, and i believe we can all grow.

this hasnt been fun.  we don't choose the illnesses of the people we fall in love with.

i apologize for not having more to offer ben, as i would give him the world.

just because i love him doesnt mean i want to be abused. we all have our limits.

ben pickering told me saturday night he stood over a bridge contemplating suicide onto the concrete below.
by sunday he was threatening carjacking me, committing suicide by holding his wallet and trying to trick cops into thinking its a gun, begging me to commit double suicide by jumping in the river.

my family is trying to save his life.

he tried to smash a plate glass window of Shogun's Gallery, 503-224-0328, 1111 NW 23rd Ave outside good samaritan hospital at 12:10 am August 26, 2015 saying if i smash this window, will the cops come kill me?


he repeated to me, he wanted to die, was going to die.


he tried to smash the KBOO radio station glass plate window on me last November.

he stalks me at all hours of the night, screams at me.  i do not live in a safe neighborhood, and i feel that ben pickering constantly stalking and threatening me with police puts me at risk from the drug dealers in the neighborhood, who may feel his mental instability is a liability.

on saturday he screamed at me on the street, on sunday.  i have patiently driven him to olympia and told him not to come to multnomah for his own safety.

his refusal to respect my landlord's exclusion order is what got him arrested for trespass.

he is too cognitively impaired to respect my need for space and safety.

i kindly drove him off the property for two of his stalking events sunday.

if his family and friends love him enough to make nasty comments on this blog blaming me for his brain injury symptoms, why dont you also pick up the phone and ask to speak to his mental health care workers and nurses.

fight for him!
i will.

Multnomah Detention Center

mental health workers


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