alert: crazy men!

james nelson jaimz422 @ yahoo. com

all my admirers are basically flipping out i like george so much

so they have to do man-tantrums

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From: mary rose lenore eng 
Date: Thu, Jan 19, 2017 at 11:15 PM
Subject: 
To: james nelson

that was really unacceptable behavior james.  Like with Dan Kennedy i'd rather not have you come over any more, because you made me feel very unsafe.

it seems to be a common occurrence that certain kinds of men, do not like to listen to women speak, and seek to shout over them.  

your volume was offensively inappropriate for my 83 year old neighbor across the hall, and your disregard for her well-being or my well being in this building means this will not be a repeat occurrence.

dan kennedy has done something similar at least three times.

Do i look like i am just DYING to be abused by some random man?

I don't know why i have become the target of your rage.

You should actually listen to me about sexual assualt and harassment law, it's something i have studied for years. your inability to respect the seriousness of my studies or expertise or the possibility of me having ideas, thought, and words to share---is indicative of your need to control your own fantasy land.

i am not the paper-cookie-cutter submissive chick who can swallow a load of vomit and smile.

I want you to grow as a person, but so long as you become consumed with rage at me, and deny me the human dignity of self-expression, this is a child-like stage of development.

It's too bad you are uninterested in the REAL ME.

i really don't like seeing this side of you. My mother did that to my dad my whole life---work herself nearly to death---and then come home to scream at him.

I don't want to live an abusive life.

i've had enough abuse from Ben Pickering to last a lifetime, or from any of my rapists, or men who have violently assaulted me.

Perhaps if you viewed me as a victim of male violence, you would not treat me so unkindly.

If you disbelieve all assault allegations, i assume you disbelieve mine.

So perhaps you will never recognize the pain of what it is like to be assaulted, harassed, and raped by men, and have other men try to kick you when you're down.

I believe you can grow in compassion.

So i'm not telling you to piss off entirely.

But i am telling you that i never want to be alone with you, EVER, especially in this retirement disability home where i live, because you do not respect my need for a peaceful Americans with Disabilities type setting where the Violence Against Women Act is respected by my manger. Do you realize if i get stalked or abused here, the federal government will relocate me?

Do you realize how much i needed that when Ben was stalking me?

Do you think i want more creepy harassment, assaults, or creepy misogynistic attitudes in my life?

have a great Birthday.

I know you are literate, so its a huge relief for me to write my feelings about this.

I hope you have a great day.

I am not a psychologist or psychiatrist, or anything like that, and i don't know what to do when you have your episodes. ive only seen this side of you twice, but i find it frightening and am afraid it may repeat.

if i ever do feel inclined to visit at your work, let me know if you would rather me not----

Men use their anger to intimidate women, and i don't like feeling that way.

I'd rather there not be a third time for this kind of explosion from you James Nelson

Mary Eng

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From: mary rose lenore eng 
Date: Sun, Jan 8, 2017 at 9:28 PM
Subject: dangerous blog on kennedy
To: mary eng

I had the poor fortune of sitting beside Dan Kennedy on Thanksgiving. He quickly proved intolerable.

see Scorpio aggression

His friend George Karge was cute and quiet.

Dan Kennedy has the lowest Social IQ ive seen in years. He beat up Christopher Krone on Christmas, and punched John St. Mary in the eye two days later.

He walks into to traffic brandishing his sticks.

He thinks i need to take more LSD so i can relate to him.

He tried to parasite into my world really quick.

I threw him out in a quick 48 hours when he started reciting megadeath lyrics he sent to his mom in Australia which use the B-word.

He then wanted to talk about how much he knows this is a hurtful word to women and that is the reason why he has to send his mom creepy emails calling her a B-I-T-C-H.

i found this disturbing.

the next time i saw him he was drunk and raving and brandished his stick at me, across a table at the labor temple.

my friend ally alerted bar management he's stalkery.

his friend george was charming though.

i told dan to have a nice life. that he has no manners.

eventually his tough chick-friend crytal who dates H-junkie chris hales persuades me to try to hang out with him.

she now threatens to hang me, break my nose, break my glasses, kick my teeth on the curb---based on whatever dan kennedy told her.

 i call it "weaponizing" his friend. dan kennedy has talked so much nastiness about me, she is threatening to hurt me.

dan kennedy doesnt get why i am not into his alcoholic world view.

he comes over, and i ask him to leave bc he's shouting.  he shouts louder.

i then express my interest in george. about december 22.

and so then i fall for george.

within a few days we are texting.

the day after dan kennedy assaulted christopher crone, i speak to him, because i want to understand what's going through his mind.

i then invite george over.

dan becomes livid, but controls it.

dan eventually explodes in a jealous rage.

that's the last time we hung out.

i've run into him twice and each time he's abusive and verbally attacking me, calling me crazy, insane, a bitch.

he's a nasty man.

i just want to warn his future victims.

he is preying on women for their housing and resources, he is predatory, narcissistic.

he snorts carol of the astor's adderall and sometimes hits meth. he pops mega valium.

he is dangerous, and violent.

one day dan kennedy indicated to me he wished i was submissive like a japanese woman and tolerated his alcoholism.

another day he finally expressed his wish to date an asian girl again.

when he started harassing me at about 7:20 pm around 9th and commercial, i told him sarcastically: yeah, dan, all women are whores and all women should be burned at the stake in public.

i tried to be nice to him today and he quickly melted into a rage.

i tried to indicate to him that it is wrong to beat people with his walking sticks.

then his friend columbo joined in the bullying.

he threw down his sticks.

he called me the b-word.

i told him to never call me the b-word again.

i repeated it over and over.

miguel had agreed to act as my bodyguard in case he attacks me.

john st. mary (punched in the eye by dan kennedy) said he might be a sociopath.

george said, can we do this some other time.

i kissed george on the cheek and walked into the street.

i told daniel louis kennedy to go back to saudi arabia as i crossed the street.

no offense to saudia arabia, i think american men might be worse, as all middle eastern men i've met are far more gracious and lovely than these american BOORS.

i really apologize for the slur of it, but i don't think i can get my point across at all ever.

i think dan kennedy tried to become like  criminal minded parasite to me. he doesnt care if i am not attracted to him, or just wanted to be friends.  he wants to force his personality on me, despite the face that he has no manners.

i told him stop calling me girlfriend and girl. i am not that never was.

if the conditions of his life improve he might not hurt as many people.

somebody said please dont disrespect women in front of me.

the other passive men just let him verbally abuse me.

i told george to take care of his mate.

because i could tell george didnt want to leave him.

i felt mildly suicidal after the public humiliation of being screamed at by this deranged meth zombie.

what is sad, is that i told him my life story, assuming we'd be friends forever. but now that his mood swings are at full blast, and he is consumed by tyrannical rage, he is primed to terrorize me, anytime i see him.

i havent yet got a restraining order, because i imagine i am hoping he'd chill out, or calm down.

i am glad his mother is safe from his abusiveness, where ever she is.

just because you have sex with an overly insistent man who has glommed onto you in astoria, does not give him the right to verbally harass stalk or abuse or publicly humiliate.

he is probably an anarchist and is just taking all the power he can.

i didnt really want to sleep with him to begin with.

the sex wasnt that great.

so i think that has hurt his ego big-time.

he doesnt even approve of me being bisexual.

so now i have fallen for george, or did at first sight---he just cockblocked george, and wants to keep doing it, by throwing huge tempertantrums.

he loves george to pieces.

all the heaps of verbally abusive things dan's said to me---omg he's so deranged.

i've made friends with christopher crone ---the victim of  dan kennedy's Christmas beat down.

the only thing holding dan kennedy back from beating me up, is proably his ego.

dan kennedy doesnt want to be known as the guy who beats up women.

he has no shame verbally abusing me in public.

that's interesting.

so.

i guess i need to go underground, buy some mace, buy a bulldog, etc.

honestly, it was such a relief when george chased dan away.

its only the bad fortune of running into him twice in this small town the last week, that makes me remember.

i already avoided him once today.

i burnt up the pan of cinnamon.

and then---stressful psychotic people run havoc on your nerves, and i do need to be alone.

Once he had spit out all the same speeches at me, and it all went on repeat, i got sick of his supposed high intelligence.

he may be some aspergersy genius.

but his social IQ is at a Rabies level.

my first thought---when we met up at the clatsop college was---this guy is so creepy he's one of the reasons i dont set foot near college campuses.

so---yeah intellect is interesting.

sometimes i can even tolerate mildly sexist men, if they have other interesting qualities.

so i wonder what happend down in eugene. or seaside. and now astoria.

every where he goes he gets in a big fight, or gets attacked.

i told him to stop flying off the handle.

he said, there is no handle.

he needs hip replacement surgery---and a detox.

and i dont have the resources to be his obamacare.

i do feel for the plight of the poor---but it is literally unsafe,

too bad he found me at such a lonely moment, and his morality playbook is so 1850's.

OH cool guys, every awesome friend with benefits i ever had---thank you for not being psycho stalker creepo types! thank you!

you know who you are . . . .

update 1-8-17

Dan kennedy the intellectual made a re-apearance, invited me to his table, and proceeded to show me a book, and declare himself on the WAGON---and told me he now studies all day. i told him his new glasses looked nice. i read aloud from his book of wit on america---and we roared laughter. a good time was had by all.  he even told Crystal---his attack lady--to lay off when she started hissing at me.

She even chased me into traffic yesterday threatening to break my glasses (for the third time?) in her weaponized state. Screaming misogynistic epithets and threatening to beat me up.

I hate being bullied.

Very odd, to see magnanimous dan kennedy quickly silence her hissing. Mary Geil the buddhist healer lady of buddha, dharma, and the sangha was present and had interceded before and would again, after last week's report that i am being threatened with physical violence by dan kennedy's misinformed friend crystal.

i thanked dan for his hospitality and quickly ducked out, lest there be a Mood Swing to poison the goodwill.

wonderful rosemary lemonade, and a little companionship from chewy et al.

i do not dislike crystal, but i don't like be threatened constantly or physically bullied, or intimidated.

i had a nightmare of her even.

Whatever dan kennedy told her, to unleash her torrent of deranged cruelty, was clearly a distortion.

Remember a little charity frequently leads to floods of abuse, all yee doo-gooders out there, protect yourself from the needy who may attack when you run low of things to give.

addendum:

there are many nice things about above person i have failed to enumerate, concentrating on the negative to purgative effect.

it is true i proposed on christmas 2016 on my knee to dan & george but george was not present.

what pack of men want to endure the radical notion of man-harem, i know not, but i must admit, i did such a thing.

currently george has seemed the only safe one. but they clearly are a package deal, inseparable friends, and both very nice in different ways.

mr. george has a higher standard of Leo dignity that makes me a very happy cat. I told Dan Kennedy one day, now we need to find a husband. By which George seems the perfect fellow!

Ha, but i'm not the Marrying Kind! I jest!

but sigh, santa brought me men. And just when i thought it could be drama-free, drama rang. and now things settle down, and i am happy, although skeptical, always.

humans are quite dangerous. approach with caution.

(i get text message and then call to meet them out at lunch. dan and george re-united, best friends again. sigh!)

furthermore:

all is well and we're all friends. so goes life.

i sprang the question of how marrying dan AND george may cause family to be a bit annoyed, as if i dont already annoy them.

run the term Man-harem by them.

all is well.

dan is on the wagon, soberish, and i should delete this post, except . . . . who is watching after whom?

we are all know-it-alls.

tomorrow school opens, so happiness prevails, under capricorn.

dan has apologized for saying terrible things.

and i have as well, and george is adorable, and i get to watch the golden globes, marveling how i met jimmy fallon at good earth in west hollywood once about 2008. it made me so nervous. he's even funny in person, just buying stuff.

he's lovely.